Long story short

I'm mad. Got my PKR roll up to $2200. I played $3/$6 and $5/$10, played good, then last night, played bad, lost it all last hand got rivered for a $1.3K pot. Tried to deposit more, had gone over limits. Had previously in the week extended overdraft. Loaded up crypto. Played $10/$20, tilting big time now. Lost a bunch more money, felt like I wanted to kill myself, the difference bewteen the elated high of winning a lot and the depressing low of losing is unbelieveable. Woke up this morning, lost a bunch more, moved to $2/$5, lost again, after a while checked bank, saw I could just about do 3 min buy ins on $2/$5. Kept getting rivered, once for a $700 pot. Pissed off, thought OK fuck it just one last min buy in, leaving me with just £44 of a £2000 overdraft, another £51 deposited. Maybe the angels were looking over me because I have just logged off having turned that $100 into $2500. If I had lost that I would have lost not only my PKR roll but another £1119 from my bank. So I just withdrew £1119 and that leaves me with £236 on crypto, which is actually profit.

I'm fucking lucky, and fucking crazy, I was on the verge of losing about £2200 and as it is now I haven't actually lost anything from my bank, just winnings, although about £850 worth, it sucks, but not as bad as it could have sucked. I can't believe I actually left the room when I did, but there were a couple of $1K+ stacks around me and I knew that 1 cooler and I lose a huge chunk of my stack and very probably the rest to tilt. Well I have a bit of cash to spin up on crypto now, although I wanna get a roll back on PKR it's full of donks. I should thank my lucky stars, because work have STILL not paid us, not sure if I even have a job and I now get charged interest if I go over £500 withdrawn, I have a bite on my ankle that is driving me insane I swear I got bitten by a fucking black widow or some shit. I need to calm the fuck down!