Arghhh!

Just came 2nd out of 36 in a Sunday Million double shootout satellite, my AK can't beat A2h AIPF with a K high flop, rivered flush.

And 8th out of 69 in a Sunday 40K satellite on Interpoker, top 6 get ticket, £37.80 for 8th. No bad beat just pushed as short stack when folded to me on button with K3 and of course the BB had aces, I keep getting so fucking close and it's really beginning to piss me off!!!

FFS

Just came 11th out of 387 in a $33 multi on pokerstars, this lovely hand sealed my fate, I was in much better shape on the turn didn't even realise the 7 had made me lose for a few seconds. I hate people who play so bad and get so lucky! So 4 and a half hours play for a measley $106.33 profit, it was over $2K for first, arghhh so annoying, my blood is fucking boiling let my hand hold up one time!!!

Annoyed

I qualified for the Sunday £40K on crypto yesterday for £12. I ended up coming 21st for £280, one place off £400 and I'm still really pissed off about it! Partly because my last hand was losing with AKc to AQs to a river flush, then someone else going out about 5 seconds later losing out on £120 which is a lot to me right now! But the way I played one hand (10,10 from the big blind) when I had a comfortable 26K stack. You can't afford many mistakes when the blinds are big and this cost me about half my stack. I feel I played really well up till then. I'm still really annoyed at myself because I so wanted to make that final table and I think if I hadn't donked up that hand I stood a good chance, and of course the £10,200 for first was looking quite appealing! Oh well I will play it again next week if I can satellite in again.

On the steps front on stars, getting pissed off with them, haven't progressed past level 3, my luck always seems to run dry there! The other day I started the day playing 1 level 1, never fell below the requirements to at least try the level again, made level 3 eventually, had I think 2 attempts then bubbled with AK vs AA. The one before there was 3 left (top 2 get a $215 seat which is what I wanted), short stack pushes with A9 off, big stack calls with AK off, flop comes 3 spades, shorty has As, you know the rest, and of course it's me who comes 3rd, grr! Can't be arsed with these things for a while, I'm in 1 event at least! Think I will stick to the tournaments for now, I'm half decent at them.

A bit of success...

Currently I am being more sensible and have stuck to playing tournaments when I do play. The Pokerstars WCOOP is running next month and I am using their S&G step system to try and qualify for some events. So far I have managed to qualify for Event #6 - a $530 buy in, 2-day event with a $3,000,000 guaranteed prize pool! Playing a 2 day event is going to be pretty hardcore, assuming I make day 2 of course, the event will probably have shit loads of runners but it will be fun to give it a shot anyway.

The steps satellites run in 6 levels, levels 1-3 are turbo and 4-6 are standard. Level 1 is just $7.50 to enter. At level 4 you can choose the level 5 satellite or a satellite to a smaller buy in WCOOP event which is what I did to qualify for the $530 tourney. There is a $1000 buy in event that I am going to try for; this is an 18 man level 4 satellite, and of course the main event, which is the level 6 sat. The main event ticket is worth $5200 so to reach this would be quite an achievement, to fall at the last hurdle though (ie. level 6) would be pretty demoralising as it takes quite some effort to get there.

I'm really pleased that I have qualified for at least one event though, and for just $7.50 too. I played so damn tight in the last sat and when we were 4 handed (top 3 get a seat, 4th gets about $215) I even folded AK to a standard raise cos I was coming 4th and I couldn't take another sick outdraw on Pokerstars - that's if I even did have the best hand. This is fine though as satellites are all about survival, I think it's the correct play. My patience was rewarded in the end, I hope I can repeat this for some more big events!

Stupid bloody alcohol!

So everything was going really good until Tuesday evening. After withdrawing that £1100 odd I had a plan to withdraw £100 a day for some sort of pretty decent wage! This was going fine, I think I withdrew a further £500 this way and still had a roll of about £700. I would play every day until I made at least £100, then withdraw £100, and let whatever else build the roll. The plan seemed foolproof, until I got drunk of course.

So Tuesday evening I went round a mate's house, had a couple of drinks and played poker for about an hour. Feeling a little bit over confident, I sat in $2/$5 with a full buy in which was a mistake. It didn't take long for me to call a raise with KJc and go 4 way to an all club flop. I got check/called by one guy, he check raised the turn all in and I couldn't call quick enough, of course he had A6c. All in all I only had about £130 left after this session. Went away, got pretty fucking hammered and logged back on at about 1am, playing till about 4 in the morning. I don't really remember too much, but I lost what was left of my roll pretty quickly and began to play £2/£5. I eventually moved on to playing £2/£5 HU with BIMBO. This was my final hand in the early hours of Wednesday morning, (it was in £ not $). I was starting to get the hang of this biatch and felt I trapped perfectly here, but alas he/she sucked out and I was done with losing money so went to bed.

In total I lost the £700 roll plus a further £1250 from my bank that night- shocking! I thought I had learnt to not play when pissed! But of course when you are pissed you don't think sensibly. Oh well, I'm sure I will win some if not all of it back eventually. It's pretty disappointing though I ain't got much cash left, well you live and learn I guess, or in my case, you just don't.

Long story short

I'm mad. Got my PKR roll up to $2200. I played $3/$6 and $5/$10, played good, then last night, played bad, lost it all last hand got rivered for a $1.3K pot. Tried to deposit more, had gone over limits. Had previously in the week extended overdraft. Loaded up crypto. Played $10/$20, tilting big time now. Lost a bunch more money, felt like I wanted to kill myself, the difference bewteen the elated high of winning a lot and the depressing low of losing is unbelieveable. Woke up this morning, lost a bunch more, moved to $2/$5, lost again, after a while checked bank, saw I could just about do 3 min buy ins on $2/$5. Kept getting rivered, once for a $700 pot. Pissed off, thought OK fuck it just one last min buy in, leaving me with just £44 of a £2000 overdraft, another £51 deposited. Maybe the angels were looking over me because I have just logged off having turned that $100 into $2500. If I had lost that I would have lost not only my PKR roll but another £1119 from my bank. So I just withdrew £1119 and that leaves me with £236 on crypto, which is actually profit.

I'm fucking lucky, and fucking crazy, I was on the verge of losing about £2200 and as it is now I haven't actually lost anything from my bank, just winnings, although about £850 worth, it sucks, but not as bad as it could have sucked. I can't believe I actually left the room when I did, but there were a couple of $1K+ stacks around me and I knew that 1 cooler and I lose a huge chunk of my stack and very probably the rest to tilt. Well I have a bit of cash to spin up on crypto now, although I wanna get a roll back on PKR it's full of donks. I should thank my lucky stars, because work have STILL not paid us, not sure if I even have a job and I now get charged interest if I go over £500 withdrawn, I have a bite on my ankle that is driving me insane I swear I got bitten by a fucking black widow or some shit. I need to calm the fuck down!

Disaster

Shit.